傻哥哥 非亲生 犹如亲生

8点钟，跑去楼下洗衣服

没有水，上楼上扛4桶水下来

从1楼到4楼，来回6次

很累

却给我空荡的晚上啊

有些事情可以做

Thervenir Theoryem

有看没懂

明天的lab就是他

别管了

上网，看看

第一次，看到

干哥哥的部落

有点惊奇，有点内疚

他写的事情，比我想象中哀愁

他写的事情，我从来却不知道

这哥哥，我就知道他

从来是退一步的大好人

就算之前发生的一件事情

的确，这个哥哥实在太傻了

可是他却愿意

也许我不明白为什么

但是我却明白我应该给以体谅

傻哥哥很疼我

还记得

我从来没有被任何人背过

就只有你

肯在跟孽子，魔仔他们喝茶回家路途上

背了我走了好一段路

那天真的很幸福

谢谢你 哥

虽然我这个没用的弟弟总是要你操劳

总是在耍脾气

总是在自私

不过

你是我最尊敬的

也是我梦寐以求的

哥

我没事的

就算我多么情绪化

我在这里也只是发泄

发泄好了

我会站起来的

你也是

你比我壮， 比我年长

你应该比我强

不是么？

傻哥哥..... :)


风掠无痕聚星湖
点滴露 无声坠落染红土
柳帘潇潇昏满月
一线间 牵挂无际半天边

回忆 凋零

最近才发现
我渐渐的开始跟世俗脱节
一点一点，渐渐疏远
路过蜕变•蝴蝶
依旧的个性文章
简单，利落。

在想….真的当初我会欣赏她是真的没走眼。
什么时候，我才会像她那么洒脱？

一个人在
闷热的窝被
空荡的思维
围绕着 成山的书 和 纸堆
手中的笔 彷徨着不知怎么走下去

Hokage’s Funeral
静静得点缀着
夕阳下
颓废的身影

突然很怀念
以前的一切

不经意地发现
在我bookmark之间
有着一位
伤我，也伤的他最深
悄悄的溜进去
看看他

是否 没有我的日子 会更好

似乎 过得不错

我知道，他不喜欢我看他的部落
他知道，我也会去八卦他的近况

这个互动，我很清楚

就算我不喜欢他来看我的部落
就算我知道他也会静悄悄的留意

我却不会怪他， 也不会生气

因为我知道

关心一个人 没有错

也许你不知道 他 是 两个人
也许你知道 他 就是你

总而言之

怀念 总是以前
要留意的 总是眼前

不要跟我说你不放弃
只因为我已经放弃

以前的人，我不想干预
我的生活也不想被干预

像蝴蝶说的
突然

真的很怀念以前
铁笔穿心的冷冰鱼
血手无情的木郎君


背着新的背囊
装着我的大学附属生命
在喧闹尘嚣的道路上

我的历史
不断记录
继续的发展
永无止境的寂静

很久没有
一个人
在水底下
静静的悠游…

5th August

I always think that is it the university life is very good? By listen to mummy, daddy, brothers… sisters… whatever… They said that Form 6 life is more toughs than University. Fine… then I going for form 6, actually am a kind of commit suicide but unfortunately, I pass all subjects…. =.=lll weird right? Dun asks me why because I also dun know the reason.

In Form 6, my life was simple, go school by driving, sleep during the classes, ignore physic lab but not chemistry, totally mind-absent in math’s class, listen the PA teacher bull shit and some not very interesting story. And then wake up during noon, and then go home. In home, no homework, just have to eat, and play computer whole day or night or midnight. Tuition classes? Sure! I sure have, because my mom said I need to attend. Then I go for tuition class. Yes, honestly that teacher is very good, but I am extremely sloth and I lazy do any home work…. Why? That because too tough of those crazy question! And the syllabus covered is too many and I am sure I cannot follow up. Then I continue this kind of life style, with little and little knowledge, finally I pass and not failed. I am quite surprise I am not failed, anyway I dun like that kind of life.

People said that I just waste my time. Yea, absolutely. That because, my love life in form 6 is bad enough. How bad? That’s enough for me to sad about few weeks, months, or 2 years. If you wan me to explain, I have to give up, I just dun wan remember those bullshit history.

I work for few months, with low salary but good experience. I am more dare to speak, I tried to sale something which not very popular with limited knowledge provided by company. And when I come to University, I feel that life style is going to change after this.

Assignment, tutorial, practical, lab, attending lecture, do discussion, finding reference, online searching and many stuff I do not done it in form 6 or I never do it. Mostly the life is here is very clear that we live with money and hard works. Not like form 6, just alike the secondary school that we spend little and we study good, comfort, and systematic. In return now I have to follow schedule myself, with alarm and whole bunch of reminder, some special time table, notes or more terrible, I call my friend gimme a call if I am not in condition (means I am overslept or drop bus or another cases).

Life here is lonely, time packed, no freedom available. With my laptop, many works, and some wheat crackers that my mom brought for me. At night, my friends is those some unknown insects, crawling on my leg or face, during I am fallen on my bed.

With no roommate, I am quite free. But, quite boring so cause I shut mouth for long~~~~ time. And now, is time for me to score my study, no more rest, no more love. Why? Because I rest too much, and I love until I am tired in mind.

Times to brought some ant killer to terminate those bad red ants whose kept my room as their base… =.=+ I scare my books and electronic device will spoiled because of them >...