Wednesday, July 29, 2009

29th July

看到我写东西,不用说就知道是坏事咯... =.=
嗯啊,又有事情发生拉,眼镜又爆开了拉,弄到我现在没眼镜迷迷蒙蒙的在街上溜达溜达....走不知道会不会撞倒人家... =.=

唉.....今天七早八早爬起来去suksis早会,没想到过了早会奔去上巴士去AutoMat的时候,突然间发现我的钥匙在房间......(!@#!@$%^^^##$$@#%%....)真他X的(简写=TMD)....还好昨天跟隔壁房的senior拿到了电话号码,赶快sms过去叫他不要锁大门,阿不然我又吃闭门羹了...o(T_T)o。吃过了两次了,再吃真的不是滋味....为什么自己那么健忘呢?我不知道.....(-_-lll)

好啦,今天做welding拉,烧焊罢了,没啥难吧?总比之前的锯铁块还来得容易吧?也不会像之前metal forming那么浪费时间吧?怀着满怀欣喜的心情去,希望这个project能够满分呱~~~
啥?要戴Lab的烂臭眼镜?好咯,我脱掉我的眼睛挂在胸前咯.....谁知道,不知道哪一个粉肠王八龟孙子臭鸡蛋没长眼睛的死土豆跑来撞我后面,可怜我的眼睛跳一下落在地上,宣布死亡......

我这副眼镜,没啥好,就是镜框很耐(当然,贵档货,不好才有鬼=.=ll),就是镜片很脆弱......可怜我的眼睛在地上便成两半,还好只是一个镜片坏掉。另外一个还好没事,但是都没眼镜,还烧啥焊啊?加上还要戴黑眼镜乌漆抹黑,要抓焊棒都抓不牢阿.很明显的是,project还是failed掉了咯....唉......四个project肥佬了三个,这个sem有够TMD难score....

怎么样?我知道要score 4.0或者3.75以上阿...但是真的很难下咧... 哎哟,头痛....我的fundamental of biosystem的两个assignment,一个Lab还有一个tuitorial还没搞定阿.....尤其是lab,TMD还要作成一本folio给他,还是那么短时间内要找那么多reference....吐血ing...... assignment还要laminate那些草本植物sample...... 我的钱飞掉了o(T_T)o..... 还要print.....又是钱啊~~~~~ (抓头ing...)

不过还好,就是今天没吃到闭门羹,反而给我赶好了assignment还有tuitorial,但是lab report....T_T还是算了.....最后一堂课,去dragon上,上课没问题,但是回家的时候不知道为什么整个沟渠盖会突然旋转,我脚踏空就下去了大沟渠,还好那个时候拿着朋友的书包,阿不然阿,现在要传宗接代都成问题了T_T,但是还是擦伤了大腿。唉...不幸中的大幸咯~~~

最气人的就是那个死人头bus driver,明明dragon回去wang ulu就会经过kangar,死命的说不可以停,会被warning的,然后说现在没有bus回去睡觉到晚上才去。 我顶你MDCJB!·#!·,其他的driver说一声就给你下车,开个门罢了会要你的命咩,加上现在我去修理眼镜咧,你以为我去蹲街边哦。看你的猥琐样子就知道你故意推搪想要早点回家喝奶咯。真是无名火起就想把你狠狠地揍一顿。 = =+

不过,算他还好,肯给我下车,自己迷迷糊糊在街边走来走去,走了半小时才才走到KWSP,顺道去aunty那里吃东西先咯。 Aunty还很好聊,他说这里的眼镜店都是砍菜头的,我就跑去问问,还真TMD贵到....不是砍菜头了,连我子孙根也砍掉算了,人家做一个好的镜片才五十元,他们竟敢卖一百五十以上,walaoye,反被撞也不是这么狠吧?我干脆寄回去,叫我妹妹这个算死草去帮我修理好了=.=lll

脚不疼了,慢慢走到图书馆,正奇怪怎么一个人都没有.......就捧着手提电脑进去上网了,看到可爱的妹妹,开了wedcam就跟家里人聊天...

恩...............还是家里最好~~~~~

PS: 等下我还不知道怎么回宿舍呢........................汗..................

Thursday, July 23, 2009

23th July

I gonna crazy after this….. How could I lost my things, summore is very important things in my study in UniMAP and not only once… First is mine pencil box with all my important stuff inside like pen, pencil, rubber, puncher, stapler, and also mine one of the Parker pen which is mine birthday present. Then I forget to bring my engineering jacket while I go home and my mom to post to me with super high speed and high pay. Now, I lost again, my handphone. Not enough one week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A new handphone!! What the fuck of it…. I hate myself... how could I so idiot and bull shit like this? Why I keep like amnesia like this? Even study I also behaved like this. I try to remember remember and remember. But I cant get it!!!!

Darn…. What could I do? Now I lost mine phone, mom is mad right now, forget to return the library book and now has the penalty of RM6, and I have to go maxis center to do mine sim card again…. Money again…. I dunno what can I do with my lovely phone my mom gift me, but that bullshit and fuckoff spouse of the phone is the problem. The outer surface of the spouse is rough enough that I cant even can completely put mine phone into my pocket, then inside the spouse is super and extra soft and the phone keep slipping out. So what do you expect? A new phone which my mom gift me is gone now, I dun think got such good luck I am that mine phone was picked up by a good guy who will return back to me. Bad luck enough….

Not only these, my bf leave me too, reason? No. So? I dun know so dun ask me these nonsense question. Sure u say that I am his bf so why I dun know? But I just can told u I really dunno, may be I am not a good bf or anything else. The people who leave me alone without reason, he is not the first one.

So what should I do now? Staring into sky and smile to this crime and unfair god? I study hard I get nothing but forget, I have good family and good gift but this fate taken it. Oh my… I cant imagine what I will forget afterward…. Maybe I will forget my best friend, maybe I will forget my name, maybe I will forget my sister, my parent , forget to study, forget to sleep, until I forget myself.
Amnesia, not just only for old folks but same to me.

I am try hard to remember peoples name, location and mine lectuarer name, I do it hard, but after 1 month until now, I still not able to remember all.
I stupid right? Yea… extremely silly.

18th July

Seems like these day i have get into amnesia trouble... i totally forget i still have a blog before this... But actually i really dunno what could i write. Mine life is full of secret that i have to hiding mine real identity. This kind of thought is getting deeper since i enter local university last few week. Why? just because i am the way to enter the global social life, have to learn to be tricky to protect myself. Anyway, to some very nice people, i still able to share mine thought, which is mine only way to relax my stress during mine study, which about 800 km from my sweet home.

I knew a lot of friends here, my good course mates like Poh Hong, Kien How,Su Ai, Kerly, Any and etc. honestly they treat me very good, i am appreciate and i try to treat them good so. Especially Poh Hong, i like this guy cause he is very care about his friend all the time. As his room mate about 2 week, we have a great time cause both of us like clean and comfortable environment, like to share same topic, gaming, and all the others. He dun wan to join SUKSIS just because he wanna accompany his girl friend before she went to foreign country futher study. So good is he?

Now talk about my course, who knew what is BioSystem Engineering? Dunno right? Actually just is Modern Agriculture and Plantation Engineering. Indeed, i sure know this course before i enter this University, but seem like 70% student of mine course dunno what exactly is... although the lectualer keep brain wash and input positive mine to us, but i knew the fact~~ I knew it was agriculture so i quite dislike they keep decorate this course with whole bunch of theory, principle, issues and whatever bull shit things. I knew these just intro, and i have 4 more years to go.... long run..... But i quite enjoy the time at the field of farming, many malays girls like Za, Piko and Fatimah quite suprise this city boy why so like involve into mud work? I just said that, i like it.

UniMAP, seem like only Yan Zheng knew what is this university is. i totally dunno about this university. Maybe show that i am a idiot which know too little fact in mine country.... this is a new built univerisity, which as KUKUM for last few years. This university have a stupid characteristic which its campus is around all the Negeri Perlis. where u go in perlis u sure will see a blue label of UniMAP. But that is a problem, the hostel we stay sum up about 7 different place with approximate 4000 students. and the place to attend class have to depending on bus absolutely. Although UniMAP has its own bus, but i can just command these bus driver is lazy enough and always waste our time to just waiting them to open the door and start the bus engine. I have a class at 10am, mean that i have to wait at bus stop about 8.45am and i have to get off mine bed about 8am. And sometime after class, have to spend my 2 hours times to consume "fresh air" beside the road.... quite pity.. i am not busy at all, but just people wasting my time...

These day my feeling is complicated... why? Just because my family where mine mom was send to hospital because her pain from lower part body get raise again.... Dad told me these when i was on the way to bed. i was so worry and i plan to go home tomorrow by absent few days classes. Anyway she said that she ok, she wan me study well and dun simply skip the classes... morewhile i have SUKSIS interview at the same week. I am blame myself why my mom was sick i cannot be with her.... Unfortunately... dad told me again.. my cute sister's right ear going to lost 70% of listening sensitivity..... i cry that night with mine phone, and i disturb Poh Hong sleep that night.... thats why, now i going back. Just for my family.

By living in a agriculture state, i have plenty of time to spend with nature and boring. With those lousy internet line in ours hostel, i totally cannot online and only can do it in PPK Bioprocess which we call as Dragon. Or we can go library to online so, but too far, i better stay in room and snore on the dirty bed.

Haha..... i am almost lost contact to the world, just because i attend the jail of nature and acedemic trap, not a sad thing but have to work hard.

For me, and my family and friends. Right?